Things I learned (about myself) after my husband innocently mentioned some new technology

by Joni on March 30, 2010

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Let me begin with the end, and share my higher learning first:

  1. I don’t need (or want to THINK I need) any more “stuff” to enhance my life.
  2. Focusing on fluctuating household income distracts me from listening to my intuition and doing authentic and inspired work.
  3. I care less about new technology and more about connecting with genuine, creative, like-minded people who enjoy exploring the opportunity in any challenge.

Before you think I am way enlightened, let me share where I started and began contracting:

  1. I don’t want to talk about anything unless it doesn’t cost me one more penny.
  2. When are we going to re-assess the household expenses I assumed during the time that my income grew more than my husband’s.
  3. Since my husband transitioned twice last year from salary + expenses + benefits to 100% commission with no expenses paid and no benefits, I decided it was better for my mental health to remember the Serenity Prayer, and have the wisdom to know what was and was not in my control. This detachment, taken to the extreme, now has me unclear about some of the finer details of my husband’s present career adventure.

So my husband’s simple comment about new technology triggered in me a cascade of repressed fears about financial security and a subsequent knot in my stomach. As a recovering pessimist (emphasis on the recovering) I decided to step back, breath and journal. I realized I hadn’t been honoring myself and my message to others – that while being overly focused on work issues or things you need to FIX, you may lose sight of the power and beauty of the panoramic view.

So my thought for the day (and to share with you) is that while focusing on one area of your life that may be demanding more of your attention, don’t forget to step back and check in and assess how this all fits with YOU and the life you want to create. And if it feels overwhelming to figure this out on your own, you might want to consider exploring possibilities and a new plan of action with a coach. My coach and mastermind group keep me grounded and hold that larger vision for me when I lose mine.

Now excuse me while I go apologize to my husband.

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